When Anne let me push her wheelchair, I knew we were really friends. Her vulnerability with me allowed me to be more open with her and created connection. As I allow others and God to push my metaphorical wheelchair, I’m receiving more grace and peace.
Feeling deserving of my abundance, especially where money is concerned, and accepting my decisions around spending it may be my greatest struggle. Perhaps accepting the struggle is what self-compassion looks like – knowing that I will never get it right, but loving myself anyway.
I have been inhibited in writing about and fully immersing myself in the spiritual part of my journey out of fear. It’s time to take that leap of faith.
“Feeling deserving of having money and accepting my decisions around spending it may be my greatest struggle. Perhaps accepting the struggle is what self-compassion looks like – knowing that I may never get it right, but loving myself anyway.”
It is said that it is better to give than receive, but I’m inclined to think they are necessary in equal measure. The trick is to overcome my discomfort with receiving so I can enjoy whatever is given.
The onslaught of requests for money on the street and in social media, fill me with a desire to help, but also guilt, fear of judgment, and resentment. Saying yes to alleviate my discomfort, though, leaves me ineffective. So I am learning to answer from my heart rather than guilt and to love myself in the discomfort of saying no.
“I don’t need to diminish my needs or become someone else to be able to love and forgive. In fact, I can only love and forgive others when I stop expecting them and me to be someone other than who we are.”
How No Saint Jennifer learned that letting go is not a magical place of ease, but requires acceptance of her persistent nature, acknowledging her thoughts, then letting them go, again and again.
No Saint Jennifer discovers that we are all doing our best and in the process finds new ways to love herself and others more.
An angry confrontation with a halloween prankster with a bat led No Saint Jennifer to new lessons in anger management and self-compassion.